So, yeah I wish I could have a "do over" for last night and today. First off, I don't want followers to think I am a negative nancy but this #$^& is not easy!!!! I know you all know what I mean too. Changing your lifestyle is difficult. I have however been reading some great stuff in other blogs and I am taking the suggestions given.
I have to preface my story by telling you about my husband. He is the worlds most disciplined individual. I hope to be more like this one day. The fat girl inside of me looks forward to his 11:00 pm bedtime when I can raid the fridge and pantry. I have spent many a night gobbling up gallons of ice cream, bags of chips, you name it I probably ate it-lol! Last night I decide after he goes to bed that I will go up to redbox to rent some movies. The next thought that pops into my mind is that it couldn't hurt to swing by McDonald's down the street. I mean I have been doing pretty good right? Besides this weight loss thing is hard. WRONG!!!! Not only did I beat up on myself after I ate it but I stayed in a state of self-loathing all day! Later on I realized that I ate not because I was hungry but because I received a notice about something that was out of my control. Instead of accepting the situation for what it was I worried myself into an eating frenzy. For a total of 10 mins I was in Mcdonalds bliss. I guess you could say in some ways I am grateful for the situation because it helped me become aware of my patterns. The next time this happens I can make a different choice. Tonight I think I will get to bed early and start fresh in the morning. Thanks to everyone who has been supporting me thus far. Until tomorrow!